Why...

I look at these pictures I have of Kamryn. Everyone looks so happy with her. I was lovingso much the direction in which my life was going. Why did no one tel me that this could happen. I mean I guess they do. But they tell you in a way of like "this could, but really doesn't, happen."  I just want prepared. I wish I had been able to brace myself--if that even possible?? I feel, at times, I am always waiting for something to happen to Kylie. I think that I have finally gotten over my fear and then it gets worse. I'm either took scared to check on her while shes sleeping or I'm checking on her took much to the point she wakes up. I have a feeling I will be like this til the day she leaves the house.
   If no one is going to tell me that it  is going to happen and when, Ill just  spend everyday preparing for it. Maybe I'll get lucky and never have to deal with it again.



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